I cannot believe I’m at 33 weeks. It really seems like this day would never come. I am feeling baby girl kick. I’m getting braxton hicks contractions. We are still getting her room set up. We hope to have it finished over the next week or so and then use our next weekend to get a car seat installed and pack our hospital bag.
We are also planning on hopefully having a few weeks of just us. We want to do a few things before our lives change forever. We are so incredibly excited for our little girl to come, but I still have moments of nervousness.
We are going to childbirth classes and someone asked if there’s anything you can do to help you dilate and they mentioned that they use Misoprostol. My husband noticed I flinched as to me that drug means “help me get rid of dead baby.” I have a feeling if I need it (and I know that they do use many of the drugs I took to help my miscarriage cells leave my body during pregnancy) I am going to need a code word as I will panic. It just brings back memories.
We had our baby shower and were completely overwhelmed by the support we received from our friends and family. People are generous with babies! We need to just pick up a few more things for her room and then we will be set up with the basics.
I’m a bit nervous about figuring out the whole Mom thing, but I have faith that I can do it. My husband and I are an amazing team and we will figure it out. It’s just me and him for the birth. No one else will be allowed in the room, so we will rely on each other. Right now I am going to ask that they not offer me any pain medicine and attempt to do a natural birth. However, I would like them to tell me when my cut-off for the pain meds are just in case I’m on the edge of changing my mind.
As it gets closer to Mother’s Day, I am just so incredibly thankful and remembering the pain of last year. No one should ever have to go through a miscarriage or the comments people make afterwards. However, I just keep praying that in about 1.5 months we will be meeting our little girl.