My marriage isn’t working. We’re stuck in the same loop of fights. We’ve started fighting in front of the kids. I try to talk and he cuts me off. I try to explain how I’m feeling and he disagrees. I then don’t want to listen to him so I cut him off. We’re both to blame, and I’m tired. I’m tired of fighting. I’m tired of feeling like I’m giving 110% but I get 50% in return. I’m tired of him having secrets he posts online but then won’t tell me what he’s commenting on. I’m tired of doing 90% of the house work. I’m tired of being the one to remember everything.
But I have two amazing kids who only want me. I’m their favorite. I get extra snuggles and fun. I also get extra tantrums. I’m never giving them up. I could never not see them daily. So where does that leave me?
I’ve been reading lots of marriage and relationship books lately. They all say I can’t change him. I know I can only change me. We will have to see where that leads as I currently don’t know.
But I have two amazing kids. They are worth this.